我从很小的时候起——约莫五六岁光景,就知道自己长大以后会成为一个作家。大概17岁到24岁那几年,我曾试图打消这个念头,但同时深知这样做是在抹杀自己的秉赋,或早或晚,我是一定会安下心来埋头写作的。我家有三个孩子,我排行老二,比老大小五岁,比老三大五岁,因此我和他们之间都有点隔膜,此外八岁之前我没怎么见过父亲。由于这样的家庭环境和其它一些原因,我那时不怎么合群,岁数再大点时更是浑身讨嫌的怪癖,使 I grew up - about five or six years old, I knew I grew up to be a writer. At the age of 17 to 24, I tried to dispel this idea, but at the same time, I knew that I would certainly try my best to ease my writing by getting rid of my admonition, sooner or later. My family has three children, and I rank second child, five years older than my oldest child and five years older than my third child, so I have a little diaphragm between them and I have not seen my father before I was eight years old. Due to this kind of family environment and other reasons, I did not get together very much at that time, and when I was a little older,