说来这是上世纪的事了。一部厚厚的书稿荒废在纸堆里 ,已经十五年了。满腔热情 ,一番苦心 ,连同万般的无奈 ,就这样默默地躺在尘灰里 ,忍看春去春来 ,早已不再是期待了———出版遥遥无期 ,而终于成为了一种谴责和警示。谴责会时时冒出来 ,折磨着良知。愧疚的心永远无法面对的 It is a matter of last century. It has been fifteen years since a thick manuscript was left in the paper pile. Full of enthusiasm, a lot of painstaking, together with all sorts of helplessness, so silently lying in the dust, endure spring to spring, long ago no longer look forward to --- publishing in the foreseeable future, and has finally become a condemnation and warning . Condemnation will emerge from time to time, afflicting the conscience. Guilty heart can never face