这一句,他憋了十八年,才终于肯当众说出,而我,也是等了十八年,才通过小弟,辗转听到。1他这一辈子,从来不怯谁,除了我。他在县城里,没有正式的工作,却靠着登百家门,给人维修下水道的零碎活计,养活了一家人,并供我和弟弟念书。但我并不是特别地感激他,因 In this sentence, he had been jealous for eighteen years before he finally made public statements. I, too, waited eighteen years before passing the younger brother and hearing it. 1 In his life, he never told anyone but me. In the county town, he did not have formal work, but he relied on the entrance to the hundred gates to give people a piece of work to repair the sewers, to feed a family and to study for me and my brother. But I am not particularly grateful to him because