这是湖南省衡阳县一位乡镇干部在自己从业十年时的一个演讲。直面内心,直面“痛哭失声”的过往。以取消农业税为拐点,他所经历的十年,恰好是中国农村财政关系与社会关系巨大调整的十年。作为一个富有争议的群体,乡镇干部背负着怎样的十字架,怎样在现今的公共事务中避免出现集体性消极?为尊重当事人意愿,署名为化名。演讲稿略有删改,题目为编者所加。 This is a lecture by a township cadre in Hengyang County, Hunan Province, who practiced for ten years. Face the heart, face “crying ” in the past. With the abolition of the agricultural tax as the inflection point, the ten years he has gone through happen to be exactly the decade in which the rural financial relations and social relations in China have been tremendously adjusted. As a controversial group, what kind of cross is the township cadre carrying and how to avoid the collective negative in the public affairs of today? To honor the wishes of the parties, the signatures are pseudonyms. Slightly revised speech, the title editor added.