我决定复读的消息出乎所有人的意料。在许多人看来,这不过是一个笑话,当时的班主任甚至预言,我就算再把高中重新读一遍,也很难考上大学。我不怪他们这么想。过去的两年我过得实在太荒芜。尤其是高三那年,我像着了魔一样,每次考试都倒数第4,我的课桌上用圆珠笔画满了卡通图案,书页的空白处全是我写的小说片段。我曾经以为,成绩对我完全不 The news I decided to repeat was beyond everyone’s expectations. To many, this was just a joke, and the class teacher at the time even predicted that I would have to go back to college if I could re-read high school again. I do not blame them for thinking so. I have lived so desolated in the past two years. Especially in the third year of high school, I was like a devil. Every time I took the exam, I fell back to the fourth place. My desk covered a cartoon with a ballpoint pen. The blank space of the page was all the fiction fragments I wrote. I used to think that the grade did not do to me at all