解放前,我教了不少年数的书,一开始总玩味着古人所吟诵的“罗天下英才而教育之,一乐也”的美好词句,企图在那黑暗统治的社会里能做个“入污泥而不染”的清高人。然而,事不如人愿,为了生活,为了吃饭,不得不向那些富家贵人求情拜佛,以讨张“聘书”,或者是以知识为商品,忙于为人补习。我曾因一个人的收入不足以维持全家人的贫困生活,就在平日教书之余,想力设法兼做家庭教师,去教那些阔少奶奶、富家的少爷小姐。可是他们那里会尊你为师呢?对你是视之若路人,弃之如敞屣。这样,不仅谈不上什么清高,连独立人格部没有了。又记得我曾 Before the liberation, I taught a number of years of books, beginning with the total fun of the ancients recite the “Luo world excellence and education, a happy also” beautiful words in an attempt to be in the dark rule society can be a “ Into the sludge without dyeing ”Qinggao Ren. However, things are worse than people’s wishes, in order to live, in order to eat, have to ask those wealthy and prayers to discuss the “appointment letter”, or knowledge of goods, busy with tutoring. Since I was short of a man’s income to maintain the poor life of the whole family, I devoted myself to teaching as a tutor and teaching young master who was young and rich and rich. But where will they respect you as a teacher? If you are as if you are passers-by, abandoned as openly. In this way, not only can we not speak anything of esteem, there is no independent personality department. I remember once again