一千方百计地偷袭我尚未完全结痂的疤痕,盼我手上或脚下创口再次出血是哥哥的童年乐事之一。我对疤痕的病态防护基于对痛感的杜绝。我怕痛。更怕在毫无防护的情况下,皮肤被撕裂;从同一个地方,暗红黏滞的血液再次流淌而出。我很怀疑,这从同一个地方流出的血液,是不是拥有不同的源头。它们带给我 One by one, I have attacked my scar, which had not yet been fully scabbed, and it was one of my elder children’s childhoods that my bleeding on my hands or feet again was bleeding. My pathological protection against scars is based on the elimination of pain. I’m afraid of the pain. Fear even in the absence of protection of the skin was torn; from the same place, dark red sticky blood flow again out. I doubt very much if this blood flowing from the same place has different origins. They bring to me