周末,赖在家里。同学发短消息约我去 K 歌,我没回,假装没看见。妈妈说我这样下去可不行,又要长几斤肉了,硬拉我一起去超市买东西。拗不过她,我只好跟着去了。走在大卖场中,我感觉并不好。只觉得头晕乎乎的,心情压抑。出门之前脑子里明明已经列好一张清单,可一到现场,居然什么都想不起来。就像期末考试死记硬背生疏的政治概念,一到开考,“内存”就读取困难。于是我不耐烦地催妈妈快点快点,妈妈一脸诧异地望着我:你什么事那么急呀?我怔了一下。是啊,我其实很空。可最近老是这样浮躁,做这件事却想着那件,结果什么都做不好。其实什么事都不想做,但懒散过后又觉得可怕。也许是毕业的脚步慢慢临近,从就业市场上传来的阵阵惶恐辐射到了我。 Weekend at home. Students send a text message about me to K song, I did not back, pretend not to see. Mom said I go on like this, but also a few kilograms of meat, drove me to go to the supermarket to buy things. Beat her, I just had to go. Walking in the hypermarket, I feel not good. Only feel dizzy, depressed mood. Before going out my mind clearly has a good list, but to the scene, actually can not remember anything. Like the final exam rote politics concept, once the exam, “memory ” to read difficulties. So I impatiently urging her mother to hurry up, my mother looked at me in surprise: What are you so hurried? I startled a bit. Yes, I am really empty. Can always be so impetuous lately, do this thing but think about that piece, the result of what are not doing well. In fact, do not want to do anything, but after lazy feel terrible. Probably the pace of graduation is slowly approaching, bursts of radiation from the job market radiate me.