壹我一出生,就被嫌弃。家里不是养不起,而是父亲认为连生三个丫头很丢人,但父亲仍然找了一个保姆照管我,于是我刚断了奶就被送到她家,一个月给五十块钱。她姓秦,早年得过天花,一脸麻子。我去之前,据说她已照管过十七个孩子,少则几天,多则几年。她自己也有个儿子,叫小海,那年已十二岁,把还不会走路的我架在脖子上满院疯跑。 Once I was born, I was dismissed. The family did not afford to raise it, but my father thought that even the three girls were very shameful, but my father still looked for a nanny to take care of me. So I just sent my milk to her home and gave me 50 bucks a month. She surnamed Qin, had smallpox in her early years, a look of pockmarks. Before I went, she was said to have taken care of 17 children, ranging from a few days to more than a few years. She also had a son of her, called Little Sea, who was twelve years old and ran madly around my neck full of unwilling walking.